In 1961, a young photographer named Douglas Kirkland found himself alone in a hotel room with an undressed Marilyn Monroe and a full bottle of Dom Perignon. I’ve long thought that the definition of a passionate photographer is someone who’s jealous of Douglas not for the obvious reasons, but because they dream of the photos they could have taken. The ultimate subject in front of you — unguarded, no handlers, your time measured in hours instead of minutes? This is what portrait photographers dream of.

Wedding photography, of course, is essentially the exact opposite. 98 percent of the general public would rather not be in front of a camera if they can help it, especially when they are freaking out in the back of their minds about all the things that could go wrong with such an important and complicated event. You have virtually no control over your time, the locations, ability to change everything drastically to adapt to situations, and certainly no control over wardrobe. This is the situation I deal with about twice a week … and I love it. Every little piece of it is a fresh challenge. But I’ve been so busy with this that it had been more than seven months since I was able to do a major portrait shoot for someone who’s not a client, and it’s important some times to change gears and simply let the photography come first. On a wedding day, I never want it to be about me … but everyone needs to stretch a bit. Embrace imperfection, do things virtually no couple can do on the wedding day — basically, get up to all sorts of trouble.

This is why I’ve changed the format of my workshops a bit. I always hated the idea of workshops that whisked you off to fantastic places to “build your portfolio,” since it seemed inherently dishonest — a wedding portfolio should show what a couple can reasonably expect on their wedding day. Even worse is when a workshop teacher is clearly shooting for their own portfolio. Something clicked, though, and I basically said, “Let’s do everything I hate, but tweak it.” Day 1 is about learning to deal when everything is working against you, which are essential skills for wedding photography. Day 2 is about creating the conditions where everything can work in your favor. I want everyone to walk out of there with images they love; including myself. But I’m making sure we represent ourselves honestly. No wedding dresses, to take away even the chance of honest confusion. When I shoot, it will be in such a way that participants will be able to learn how I solve problems and try to take things to the next level. When participants shoot, they can have guidance to try out new techniques, but will have enough control to honestly be able to call the images their own. I still think Day 1 is the more valuable learning experience for wedding photographers, but oh boy Day 2 is going to be fun. There are only three spots left for Day 2, I think, so make sure to claim it!

Which brings us to Valerie. She knows her way around a camera, front and back, and she likes trouble. (“No, Valerie, I don’t think we can actually hang from a suspension bridge today.”) Because she’s comfortable as a subject and willing to try pretty much everything, it was great to shoot with her on my own terms as we headed down to shoot a fantastic wedding in Baltimore. I shot with exotic equipment and all sorts of strange and difficult techniques, from the Brenizer method to freelensing to tilt-shift to hand-held exposures at a half-second to taking flattering portraits at 12mm and more. I even shot through fog despite my urge to wipe the lenses as we played with water droplets, focus, and light under a shower head (where Valerie was very, very clothed, thank you very much).

I had the freedom I so rarely get on the job, which is to do things that might turn out like total garbage. Luckily, in my mind, it didn’t.

This set was shot on both film and digital with the following gear:

Digital: Nikon D3s with a 45mm f/2.8 PC-E, 58mm f/1.2 Noct-Nikkor (normal, pano’ed, and free lensed), Sigma 85mm f/1.4 and the Sigma 12-24mm

Film: The Hasselblad H2 with a 100mm f/2.2, on Fuji Reala 100, Fuji Pro 400H, and Ilford Delta 3200.

See if you can figure out which shots were taken with which. I’ve put an answer key at the bottom if you’re stumped.

Answer key:
Rows 1-3: Hasselblad with 400H
Rows 4-5: Hasselblad with Reala 100
Rows 6-7: Hasselblad with 400H
Row 8: Noct, free lensed
Row 9: Noct, Brenizer method
Row 10: 45mm tilt-shift
Row 11: Noct
Row 12-13: Sigma 12-24mm
Row 14: Hasselblad with Ilford 3200
Row 15: Noct for both
Row 16: 45mm tilt-shift for both
Row 17: Tilt-shift on left, Sigma 85mm on right
Row 18: 45mm tilt-shift

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Ryan Brenizer

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43 thoughts on “Valerie.”

  1. As beautiful as all these photos are… and they are just incredible… there is something just so beautiful about how you told this story. I’m in tears after reading through this and seeing all these amazing photos.

  2. Wow. I started off reading the list of techniques and gear and getting all interested, but once I got into the photos I quickly forgot about all that! The images speak for themselves! But the technical geekery can still be fun.

  3. Ryan……I love this AGAIN! And sometimes, doing things you do not like…might surprise you indeed. Thanks for sharing.

  4. Pretty fantastic! I love seeing the images you create! You’re just as awesome in a pinch on a wedding day as you are when you take your time!

  5. Outstanding, there is certainly a wet theme going on here. I love how you incorporated it in a lot of different ways though, not just water, but steam, mist, water outside windows, in the background, in the light, on her face, it is present in nearly every image, whether it needed to be due to outside conditions or not. Nicely done.

  6. It’s funny, I can tell you really had a lot of fun on this shoot. The fact that you’re smiling while holding the camera comes through in the photographs.

  7. Talk about a dynamic, eclectic session! Wow. The colors… the colors on the first half. Subdued, but true. Excellent.

  8. I’m going to guess on what each is shot on. Top 5 Fuji Reala 100, Three gate photos Fuji Pro 400H, Two car window photos are Fuji Reala 100, two black jacket digital, Starting at the pano down through the rail yard are digital. (I’m not sure about the set up photo, maybe film?) The two B&W in the black dress Ilford Delta 3200, The eyes a pop’in is digital, the next two side light in the shower are film; maybe not so sure (I think the 400?), next shower digital, the shower B&W is digital, And I think the last two are digital. If I did really bad let me down easy :)

  9. I must say that the three B&W ones are my favorite. The first two are of your usual caliber, and her personality just jumps through the images. They showcase her in an unbelievable way.. the viewer falls in love with her, especially her smile. The third really show’s off your own skill. The lighting is magical… it’s a wonderful dream that you wish you could have again.

  10. The two in front of that Gaslight sign. Um…no words. I loved the whole series, but those two just took me to another place. Bravo Mr. Brenizer.

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